Kenneth and I went outside the other day and I grabbed my camera. I bribed him with video game time and I got some awesome pics! As I was uploading the pics, I was almost in shock. I mean. Gosh, he is growing up and tooooo fast, might I add. He is so handsome and charming and crazy and funny and loveable. I could go on and on but I think I have made my point. =P It amazes me that I had a part of this little creation. He is the best of me and Alan. He came from the love the we have for each other, wow. Just thinking about it, I almost want to cry. He is Smart like his daddy, moody like his momma, compulsive llike his daddy, imaginative like his momma, short tempered like his daddy. I have caught myself lately wondering what HE will be like when he becomes a MAN. I have this picture in my mind of what and WHO he will be. I hope that I do MY JOB and he becomes a man that is honest, loyal, and hardworking, but is also tender, understanding, and passionate. Gosh, I am such a mommy... Do all mommy's do this?! give me some feedback. here is a pic from the other day. ENJOY! i put some more on my facebook and myspace. feel free to stalk me there, lol.

Much needed

We went to visit PAPAW the other day, and I wasn't that sad. It was okay. Maybe I am getting better. Or maybe a recent visit from a dear sister, helped me more than I ever thought it would. thank you, I really needed that. anyway, we took some SAND DOLLARS, and some ARROWHEADS. Those that knew BUD know why we took those..Also, Kenneth asked for a marker and I couldnt figure out why.... oh...that little boy has my heart...

In honor of my Birthday.

So, my birthday was the 21st, I am now 28 years old. Yep been here 28 years. . . Hmmm, lets see me thru the years. I've come a long way Baby.

Enough. . . .

They say it takes a minute to find a special person,
an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them;
but then an entire lifetime to forget them.

A father and daughter were in their last moments together at the airport,
Standing near the security gate, the Father said, 'I love you, and I wish you enough.'
The daughter replied, 'Dad, our life together has been more than enough. Your love is all I have ever needed. I wish you enough, too, Dad.' and she departed.

The Father walked over to the window, where a young woman was sitting, and he asked her: Did you ever say good-bye to someone knowing it would be forever?'
'Yes, I have,' She replied. 'Forgive me for asking, but why is this a forever good-bye?'.

“Well, you see, I am old, and my daughter lives so far away. I have challenges ahead and the reality is - the next trip back will be for my funeral.'

The woman says 'When you were saying good-bye, I heard you say, 'I wish you enough.' May I ask what that means?'

He began to smile. And said 'That's a wish that has been handed down from other generations. My parents used to say it to everyone... He paused a moment and looked up as if trying to remember it in detail, and he smiled even more. 'When we said, 'I wish you enough,' we were wanting the other person to have a life filled with just enough good things to sustain them.
He turned toward the woman, Smiled and he shared the following :

“I wish you enough sun to keep your life bright no matter how gray it may be.
I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun even more.
I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive and everlasting.
I wish you enough pain so that even the smallest of joys in life may appear larger.
I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting.
I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you can possess.
I wish you enough hellos to get you through the final good - byes. “

He then began to cry and simply walked away.


WOW. who would have thought that ENOUGH would actually be.. ENOUGH...
its so simple.....

yep that right!!

~DEATH~
WHAT A WONDERFUL WAY TO EXPLAIN IT .

A sick man turned to his doctor as he was preparing to

Leave the examination room and said,

'Doctor, I am afraid to die.

Tell me what lies on the other side.'

Very quietly, the doctor said, 'I don't know.'

'You don't know? You're, a Christian man,

And don't know what's on the other side?'

The doctor was holding the handle of the door;

On the other side came a sound of scratching and whining,

And as he opened the door, a dog sprang into the room

And leaped on him with an eager show of gladness.

Turning to the patient, the doctor said,

'Did you notice my dog?

He's never been in this room before.

He didn't know what was inside.

He knew nothing except that his master was here,

And when the door opened, he sprang in without fear.

I know little of what is on the other side of death,

But I do know one thing...

I know my Master is there and that is enough.'

Wow, My smart little fella..

When my daddy was slipping away, I decided that I didn't want Kenneth to see him that way; so I let him stay at my husbands Aunts until it was over. The day after we buried my daddy, I brought Kenneth home, he looked at papaws room (which was empty) and asked so innocently" is my Papaw dead?" I didnt know how he was going to react. But to my amazement HE was ok with it. I was explaining to him that Papaw went to Heaven(etc) and he says (excitedly)"My Papaw went to Heaven in a BIIIG Balloon!!!"

So, thats how he sees it, which is awesome!!!

We talk about Papaw ALOT... The other day we were cleaning around Papaws grave and I was alittle sad, We talked about Papaws cancer went away when he went to Heaven. He actually made me feel better!!!! When we got home he drew this picture for me. He brought it to me and told me that "it was Papaw with his balloon and now, I could see it anytime I wanted to!"

Oh melt my heart!

Also, My daddy LOVED ELCAMINOs and we were at Walmart the other day and Kenneth say these and HAD to get them for Papaw...

****By the way, I am learning that Kenneth "draws" his feelings. He has been quite an artist since he was about a year old. He draws more than he does anything else...